Fall For Me – Chapter One

COMING July, 2026

firefighter Romantic Comedy

Running from a wedding… into a fake fall romance!

Fleeing her wedding and a toxic relationship in her white gown, Peyton jumps on the first bus out of town—and straight into billionaire Liam Rockwood. Literally. Distracted by her search for a place to stay, she steps into the street and sends the town’s most eligible bachelor crashing off his bike!

Liam is furious. His suit is ruined, he’s late for an event at his hotel, and now the runaway bride responsible is trying to check in. Worse, the small-town rumor mill quickly decides Peyton must be his secret new wife.

When Liam’s father arrives ready to celebrate the “happy couple,” Liam makes Peyton an offer: a temporary marriage of convenience. She gets protection against her vindictive ex, a home, and a fresh start. He gets the wife his family expects.

As crisp fall days turn into cozy nights, they carve pumpkins, steal kisses in the corn maze, and share secrets in the dark. Suddenly, their fake marriage starts feeling dangerously real. But falling was never part of the plan…

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Fall For Me – Chapter One

Peyton

Being a runaway bride is terribly inconvenient. Nothing romantic or momentous like in the movies. No handsome ex-boyfriend whisked me away from the altar, begging me to choose him.

No, I did this to myself.

Turns out the hardest part of running away from your wedding isn’t making the decision, but doing it in a dress designed to prevent escape.

The bustier of my wedding gown must’ve been engineered by someone who studied medieval torture devices rather than fashion. The boning digs into my sides, turning every breath into a struggle. My lower half fares no better with the skirt smothering me in an avalanche of fabric that wraps around my ankles like tentacles and turns each step into a potential face-plant. And the tattered train drags behind me, collecting street grit like a filthy mop that gains weight the longer I walk.

Why did I let Matt’s mom convince me that more is more and let her pay ten thousand dollars for me to slowly suffocate in silk?

Each step hurts. The stilettos that seemed a good idea in a plushly carpeted bridal boutique send a fresh bolt of agony from my mangled toes up to my scraped heels every time my feet hit the ground.

The early evening air nips at my bare shoulders. I wrap my arms around myself as I shiver on the sidewalk of a random town somewhere on the Lake of the Ozarks, where the bus line ended. The early October weather that was supposed to be atmospheric and romantic in my fall wedding fantasies is just plain cold.

“It’ll be magical,” the wedding planner had said. “Think of the foliage in the photos.” No one mentioned I might end up freezing to death on the shore of a podunk small town if I bolted. Not that I’d planned to bolt.

The wind whips across my back, slicing through the delicate, impractical fabric of my gown. More goosebumps rise along my arms and shoulders.

How stupid to run away in just my dress, but I hadn’t picked out a bolero or a cape to go with it. I’d counted on the champagne to keep me warm. I thought that by evening, I’d either be tipsy enough not to feel the chill or flushed from dancing. Or both. Also the reception was indoors.

Should I turn the train into a shawl? I check behind me, but the fabric is more gray than white by now, and I’d rather not drape myself in street grime.

A bolt of lightning cracks across the sky. Behind me, dark clouds gather on the horizon, and the air smells of rain. Getting soaked would be the perfect cherry on my abandoned wedding cake: five layers of Madagascar-vanilla chiffon with champagne sponge, topped with sugar magnolias rimmed in edible gold.

My stomach growls. I haven’t eaten since breakfast.

I should’ve stolen the damn cake before I left.

I blink the image away and hobble on as my teeth clatter. What was wrong with being a summer bride? In June, I could’ve fled barefoot on a beach somewhere, hair loose in the breeze instead of having my scalp turned into a pincushion for bobby pins.

But hey, nothing says “fresh start” like hypothermia.

Speaking of summer, this wind-beaten town must be a tourist hotspot in the warmer months. Perched right on the edge of the lake, its main street slopes up from the water, crisscrossed by string lights. The road is lined with stores, their picturesque windows marked by wooden signs hanging from wrought-iron brackets and decked in pumpkins, garlands of autumn leaves, pinecones, and other quaint fall décor. But despite the festive effort, the street is deserted now.

I pass a coffee shop, The Daily Grind, closed. A hair and beauty salon, Dye Hard, closed as well. A bookshop, Shelf Indulgent, its window brimming with colorful paperbacks I’d spend too much time admiring despite the shop also being closed. But I’m freezing off, and I need to keep moving. I pass a bakery, a general store, a florist, a hardware store—all closed. The only open place is a faraway pizzeria, A Slice of Heaven. The restaurant overlooks the harbor, where water laps against the docks, moored boats creak in their slips, and the wind looks twice as vicious. I should move more inland.

I stop in front of a clothing boutique, squinting through the darkened glass. A display of scarves and sweaters mocks me from the other side. I tug at the locked doorknob, as if my desperation might somehow override their business hours.

It doesn’t.

The wind picks up again, sending a shower of russet leaves spiraling down around me. A leaf lands in my hair, joining the wilting roses. I pick it out, crumpling it in my fingers.

Main Street is very charming until you realize nothing is open. Every window is dark. The entire town has tucked itself into bed early even if it’s Saturday night. They must’ve wanted to escape the wind that keeps howling off the water like it wants to personally escort me to Pneumonia.

Which begs the question: Where the fuck am I?

I fled the church with nothing but my phone. I have no money except what’s in my digital wallet. No jacket, no change of clothes, no plan whatsoever beyond the primal need to get out, get away.

Fingers clumsy from the cold, I unlock my screen. I put it on airplane mode before anyone could realize I was on the run. And it’s been like that since I climbed out the chapel’s stained-glass window, sprinted to the station, and jumped on the first bus out of town without checking the destination.

I needed to save battery and become unreachable. But I’m down to 15 percent anyway. A red bar of impending doom.

I hover my thumb over the airplane mode toggle. The moment I turn this off, reality will flood back in. I’ll be tossed into the world where I left Matt standing at the altar in front of two hundred guests. The world where my family is probably having a full-blown, Chardonnay-fueled meltdown.

But I have no choice. I need to figure out where I am, find somewhere to sleep while I can still use a virtual card to pay, and get warm. I can’t survive without the internet.

I tap the icon.

The phone convulses in my hand, buzzing frantically as notifications fill the screen. The numbers tick up like an unbridled slot machine:

Missed Call: Mom (17)

Missed Call: Dad (11)

Missed Call: Matt (23)

Voicemail: Mom

Voicemail: Matt

52 new messages

Mom

Where are you???

Peyton, answer your phone. We’re worried sick

Matt is devastated

I doubt devastated is how my fiancé—ex fiancé?—is feeling. Angry. Self-righteous. Vindictive. All would be better suited.

Mom

His family is furious

Yeah, this is more the vibe with the VanCamps.

Dad

Bug, what happened?

Please call us. Let us know you’re safe

I reply only to my parents with a short message to let them know that I’m alive and swipe the rest of the messages away. But more crop up underneath. Notification after notification invades the screen, stacking on top of each other so fast I can barely read them.

Emma

Okay, honestly? Leaving the groom at the altar if you weren’t feeling it: hero move. A heads-up would’ve been nice, though. I could’ve been your getaway driver

Are you okay?

I’m hiding six bottles of champagne in my car. Send me your location. We can get trashed

My best friend and maid of honor is the only person I’d want with me. But first I need a location to send her. I swipe her messages away, too. More follow.

Cousin Greg

Hey sweetie, Cousin Greg here. Sorry to hear the news. Is the open bar still happening, or should we head to Applebee’s?

Aunt Mable

May I take the centerpieces home? The roses are dying, and it seems like a waste

Great Aunt Shirley

I knew your mother shouldn’t have let you eat carbs this week. It clouded your judgment

Rebecca (second cousin)

Mom’s live-stream of the empty altar has gone viral

I’m getting drunk now as her social media has become more popular than mine

Also, is it okay if I hook up with Matt’s brother, or is there a waiting period?

A wave of nausea sloshes in my stomach, making me want to throw up. I shove it down. I can’t deal with any of them now. With a few frantic taps, I enable the Do Not Disturb mode, silencing the assault. The buzzing stops. I push the thought of the wreckage I left behind into a locked box in the back of my mind to reopen later. Or never. Never sounds nice.

I tap the map app. A little blue dot pulses, showing my location. I’m in a town I’ve never heard of called Blue Crescent Harbor. The name suits the curved shoreline of the bay.

I zoom out, confirming I’m still in Missouri. About two hours north of Springfield, where I’m from.

I switch to a travel app and search for “Hotels near me.”

Several options pop up, most with reasonable rates. Thank goodness they’re open even in the off-season.

At the top of the list is a place called “Rockwood Resort” with five-star average ratings, wide-angle pictures of luxury balconies overlooking the water, an infinity pool, and a swanky lobby. The room price per night makes me wince.

It’s four times what the others cost. But it’s also the closest option, less than half a mile away according to the map.

My feet throb in protest at even that short distance just as a raindrop lands on my screen, then another on my shoulder. Perfect timing. The storm that has been brewing all evening is making good on its promise while I’m still out in the open.

Between the cold, the pain in my feet, and the impending downpour, money seems like the most expendable resource.

My bank account can recover. My toes might not.

I search for an Uber, but the closest car is forty minutes away. I’ll be frozen by then. Resigned, I tap on the resort’s “Get Directions” link.

Two blue lines appear on the map, one lining the coast, the other continuing down Main Street with a right turn at the end onto Lakeside Drive. The second is two minutes slower, but the downtown buildings promise a little shelter from the elements. I tap that one.

A calm, disembodied female voice tells me to proceed to the route. I follow its instructions, my gaze locked on the phone, watching as my location dot inches forward. Another raindrop hits my screen. I wipe it away with my thumb, leaving a smear across the glass.

I trudge on. Each step feels like I’m walking on broken glass. I consider taking the shoes off, but limping barefoot on dirty, wet-cold concrete seems even worse.

My train catches on a crack in the sidewalk. I slip, catch myself, tug the fabric free, and keep stumbling ahead.

The hem of my skirt keeps catching under my shoes. I hold the excess fabric up with one arm, but it is not enough.

I trip again, and this time, my ankle gives out. My heel skids off the edge of the curb, and I pitch forward, landing in the middle of the street. I fly my arms out to keep upright, barely holding on to my phone as the underskirts snare my feet more tightly and I land on my hands and knees.

A sound rips through the quiet evening. A deep, guttural rumble that vibrates through the asphalt and up into my bones.

I lift my head and freeze. A beam of light, blindingly white, is rushing toward me. It pins me in its glare. The rumble escalates into the deafening roar of an engine pushed to its limit as a red sports motorcycle barrels down the street at full speed.

I register its advancement in fragments. The lacquered gleam of the bike. The dark figure hunched over the handlebars. The screech of brakes. And the smell of burning rubber filling the air.

The bike fishtails, the front wheel jerking to one side as the rider fights for control. But the headlights still fill my vision, inexorably rushing toward me along with the certainty, bone-deep and absolute, that I’m about to die.

In a wedding dress.

On a random street in an unknown town.

My last thought, absurdly, is that getting hit by a motorcycle sounds less painful than taking one more step in these heels.

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THE HEAT OF THE MOMENT

THE HEAT OF THE MOMENT

 width=A neighbors to lovers, friends to lovers, single mom, firefighter romance 

Four years after losing her husband in the line of duty, ER nurse Lily Finnigan has one goal: raise her daughter and keep her heart safely locked away. Romance—even a simple fling—isn’t on the agenda. Until Josh Collins walks into her emergency room.

Gorgeous, charming, and infuriatingly kind, he is everything Lily doesn’t want—but can’t seem to stay away from.

What I love most about this book: Josh is just so swoony… usually my books are happy, happy but this one made me cry a lot while writing it. And I love it for it❤️‍🔥

     

All tropes: NEIGHBORS TO LOVERS, FIREFIGHTER ROMANCE, SINGLE MOM

Part of a series? Yes, but can be read as a standalone.

I’ve written a lot of love stories. But this one broke me open in ways I didn’t expect.

I cried while writing The Heat of the Moment. Sometimes I had to step away from my laptop because I couldn’t see the screen anymore. And then, somehow, I’d find myself laughing out loud at Josh being a total golden retriever stuck in the friend zone, at the banter, at the moments of lightness that Lily desperately needed.

Do you remember the mustache scene from You Rock My World? The one where Josie shows up to a meeting with a curly mustache drawn on her face in permanent marker because she stepped in to play Penny’s “dad” for Bring Your Dad to School Day. Her niece needed someone to fill an impossible void, and Josie showed up, ridiculous fake facial hair and all.

When I wrote that scene, something cracked open in my chest. Behind that absurd, laugh-out-loud moment was heartbreak—a little girl missing her father, and a woman carrying not just her grief, but her child’s too.

That woman was Lily.

Lily haunted me after I finished writing Josie’s book. I couldn’t stop thinking about what it takes to wake up every day after losing the person you built your life with. To raise a daughter alone. To be strong enough to hold space for a child’s sadness while your own threatens to swallow you whole. I knew I had to give her a story. A second chance. A happily ever after.

Early reviews have been coming in, and I’m also receiving more private messages about how this story has touched people than I ever have before. And I’ve been crying all over again. Some of you have shared pieces of your own stories with me. One reader reached out to say she’d lost someone close to her a few years back, and the way I wrote those hard moments of single parenthood and grief felt deeply personal to her experience.

Another message came from someone in a fallen firefighter’s family. All she could say was that she wasn’t ready to process her emotions yet, but the book was brilliant.

I’ve never had a book where readers sent me voice notes because they couldn’t type through their tears. Where someone messaged me at 2am saying “I wasn’t supposed to stay up but I couldn’t put it down.” These messages gutted me in the best possible way. This is why I write: not just for the happily ever after, but for the messy, devastating, beautiful journey of getting there.

Here’s what I’ve learned from Lily: sometimes the bravest thing you can do is let yourself want something again.

Josh doesn’t show up with grand declarations or promises to fix everything. He doesn’t rescue Lily. He shows up with dinner when Lily’s had a brutal shift. He makes her daughter laugh. He’s patient when Lily pushes him away, and he doesn’t flinch when she finally lets him in. He just refuses to let her keep pretending she doesn’t deserve good things. He’s the kind of love that doesn’t ask you to forget your past—it asks if there’s room for a future too.

And watching her fight him on it, then slowly—painfully—let herself hope again? That’s the love story I needed to write.

Maybe it’s because Lily’s journey—from survival mode to actually living again—is one so many of us understand, whether we’ve lost a partner or not.

We all know what it’s like to protect ourselves. To say “I’m fine with how things are” when we’re actually just terrified of wanting more and losing it.

But this book is not all tears and banter; there’s action, too. Wildfires. Emergency rooms at full tilt. Pulse-pounding moments that have early reviewers saying things like: “Since I started watching 9-1-1 a month ago my brain has been all on firefighters so this book came at such a good time for me.” and “It felt like I was reading an episode of Chicago Fire in the best way possible!” and “If you love Grey’s Anatomy or Station 19 or Chicago Med—this is for you.”

If you love the tension, the heroism, the romance woven between emergency room chaos and fireground danger—if you’ve been on the fence about reading it, here’s what I’ll say: this book will make you feel everything. The wildfire scenes will have your heart racing. The banter will make you smile. And yes, you’ll probably cry. But you’ll also close the last page believing that broken hearts can heal without erasing what came before. Lily and Josh’s story will feel like coming home.

The Heat of the Moment is available everywhere today.

And if you haven’t read book one yet, you’ve got the perfect excuse to dive into Josie’s story. You Rock My World is free in Kindle Unlimited and Kobo Plus (also in Kobo Plus in Audiobook).

Thank you for being here. For trusting me with your time, your hearts, and your stories. For showing up for Lily’s story. For Josh. For me.

Thank you for reading.

Camilla, x

THE HEAT OF THE MOMENT – CHAPTER ONE

The toaster emits a death rattle and spews a plume of smoke while the morning news hums chipper lies about the day’s “upward momentum.” It’s Tuesday, smack in the middle of a heatwave that’s turned Los Angeles into a convection oven. No one is moving up here, only the temperatures.

I lunge to yank the plug from the wall, startling when Penny yells behind me.

“Mom! I can’t find my gym shirt!” My daughter’s voice ricochets down the hallway, pitched at a decibel level perfect for shattering what remains of my early morning sanity.

“Check your drawer!” I shout back, fanning the smoke with a dish towel and scraping the charred remnants of wheat bread into the trash. I open the window to let the burning smell out before the smoke detectors activate and sprinkle more misery on me.

“It’s not there!” Penny shouts. The frustration in her voice suggests I’ve hidden her gym shirt in some diabolical plan to ruin her life.

I abandon the toaster crime scene and stride down the hall to her room, where my daughter is standing in front of her open dresser, wearing her gym shirt inside out with the tag peeking out at the back.

“Penny.” I point to her chest. “You have it on.”

She looks down, brows knitting together in confusion before the realization hits. “Oh.” Her hazel eyes, mirrors of mine, squint at me without an ounce of embarrassment. “Well, you could have just said that.”

I blink at her. “Right. My bad. I should have noticed you were wearing your shirt before you did.”

“Exactly.” She nods with complete seriousness. “And my hair’s weird.”

I glance at the clock—7.22 a.m.—and then at Penny’s honey-blonde curls, a tangled mass so wild it looks like a family of industrious sparrows left mid-nesting.

“If you want neat hair in the morning, let me braid it at night.” I grab the hairbrush on her nightstand.

Penny narrows her eyes as I approach and backs away like I’m wielding a chainsaw.

“Sweetie, we don’t have time for—”

“You always pull too hard.”

“I don’t.”

“Daddy never pulled.” Her voice drops to a mumble that hits me square in the chest.

I lower the brush, my throat tight. Daniel was the hair whisperer. He could detangle even the most stubborn knots without a single complaint. One of his many superpowers I can’t replicate.

“How about a ponytail?” I offer. “Quick and easy.”

She considers the proposal with the gravity of a Supreme Court justice before nodding once. “Fine. But not too tight.”

Crisis averted, I tame her curls while she fidgets and provides a running commentary on how her teacher warned too-snug ponytails cause headaches and brain damage. I’m pretty sure Ms. Meyers said no such thing, but I don’t have time to dispute fake neurological facts.

Back in the kitchen, I discover the coffee machine gurgling pathetically, a dry wheezing sound that can only mean I forgot to fill the tank.

I pick up the empty water reservoir. “You’ve got to be kidding me.”

The blinking red light mocks me as if to say, You thought you’d get caffeine today? That’s adorable.

I fill it, knowing full well that the coffee won’t be ready before we need to leave. But at least the same won’t happen tomorrow.

“MOM!” Penny’s shriek from the living room has me nearly splashing myself. “Something exploded in my backpack!”

I close my eyes and count to three, which is two more counts than I have. When I round the corner, Penny is holding her backpack, showing how yesterday’s forgotten chocolate bar has melted, staining her homework and the inside of the bag with brown goop that looks like a different substance but smells better.

“I think it’s still good,” Penny says, poking at a glob with her finger.

“Don’t—” I start, but she’s already licked it off. I sigh. “Well, at least your immune system is getting a workout.”

While my daughter wipes down her notepads—using way too many paper towels—I clean the backpack as best as I can without a tumble in the washer and throw her lunchbox inside.

I zip it up and walk back into the living room, my gaze snagging on the framed photo at the end of the wall lineup. Daniel, in his firefighter uniform, helmet tucked under one arm while he holds a four-year-old Penny with the other as they stand in front of a fiery-red firetruck. His dazzling, lopsided smile shines back at me across the four years he’s been gone. That’s the last picture I have of them together. My heart splinters against my ribcage, pounding like a fist on a locked door. It searches for a handle that isn’t there. An escape that never comes. I rub at the spot over my left breast where I tattooed Daniel’s name after he passed, missing him more than ever.

Mornings were his specialty. He’d surprise us with chocolate chip pancakes arranged into smiley faces for Penny. Coffee waiting for me when I dragged myself out of bed after a late hospital shift. He’d put my sunglasses next to my keys, so I wouldn’t forget them and squint the entire drive to work. The memories hit with such force that I have to grip the couch to steady myself.

When was the last time I made pancakes? Not those frozen, chewable impostors that taste like cardboard, but real ones, from scratch? I can’t remember. Another item on the long list of my parental failures.

Daniel would have never let weeks go by without a special breakfast treat. He would’ve remembered to check the backpack for forgotten chocolate bars. Even if he died before Penny started grade school, I’m sure he would’ve been on top of it. Her dad would have known how to do the hair thing without causing a national incident.

“Mom, we’re gonna be late.” Penny’s voice jolts me back to our smoke-scented apartment and the menace of impending LA traffic.

“Shoes,” I say, pointing to her sock-clad feet.

She hops around like a tipsy flamingo as she jams her feet into sneakers, and I scoop my bag and keys.

Three minutes later, we’re in the car. I honk along with the rest of the city’s frustrated drivers as I weave through side streets toward Penny’s school. My daughter sits in the back, unruffled despite our morning hurricane, chewing her breakfast as she hums one of Dorian’s songs—my sister’s rockstar boyfriend has become her male role model. And while I’m glad we finally have another man in the family, I’m also aware that a cool uncle will never replace a father.

We screech into the drop-off lane with a minute to spare before the late bell. Penny unbuckles herself, grabs her backpack, and leans forward to plant a quick kiss on my cheek.

“Bye, Mom. Love you!”

“Love you too, honey. Have a great—” But she’s already halfway out the car. “—day.”

Penny darts toward the entrance, ponytail swinging, shirt still inside-out, her backpack bouncing against her slight frame. She turns back once to wave, and I’m struck by how much she resembles Daniel. It’s the angle of her smile, the way her nose crinkles.

Another frenzied parent honks behind me, ripping me out of the grief spiral I was about to drop into. I drive on, mouthing “sorry” at them through the rearview mirror.

As I merge back into traffic, I catalog our morning’s victories and defeats: toaster, murdered. Coffee, unmade. One chocolate bar casualty. Breakfast… do oatmeal muffins consumed in the car count? But Penny made it to school before the final bell. In the single-parenting Olympics, I’d score a solid 5.3 out of 10—points deducted for technical execution, but a bonus awarded for difficulty. It’s only August, the second week back to school. We’ll get the hang of it.

By the time I make it to the hospital twenty minutes later, I’ve stopped at a drive-through for the saddest excuse for coffee known to humankind and transitioned into work mode. The moment I step through the staff entrance of the ER, I’m no longer Struggling Single Mom Lily. I’m Practicing Nurse Finnigan—competent, unshakeable, if not a little bleary-eyed, but nothing quality caffeine can’t fix.

“Morning, Lily,” our triage nurse calls as I stride toward the locker room. “We saved you the good stethoscope.”

“You’re a saint, Mark,” I reply, looping it around my neck. “What’s the damage today?”

“Two broken bones, one stomach bug with impressive projectile capabilities, and a guy with severe hemorrhoids.”

“Please tell me the rectal exam is already assigned.”

Mark winks. “Gave it to Dr. Maddox.”

I beam back because nurses have long memories, and nothing screams payback more than assigning bodily extractions to residents who treat us like waitstaff.

The morning passes in the choreographed madness that defines emergency medicine. The kind of entropy I’m good at, unlike the domestic variety. Blood, I can deal with. Vomit, no problem. Hypochondriacs convinced their seasonal allergies are bubonic plague? Piece of cake. It’s the emotional stuff, the photos of dead husbands and the guilt about pancakes, that leaves me floundering.

During my lunch break, I find a quiet corner in the cafeteria and call Josie to confirm Penny’s weekend plans. My sister answers on the third ring.

“If you’re calling to make sure Auntie JoJo’s special babysitting services are a go, the answer is yes. Dorian’s planning a movie night with enough sweets to ensure she never sleeps again.”

“Hello to you, too,” I reply, unwrapping my turkey sandwich. “I won’t say a word about the excess sugar. But don’t come crying when she’s duct-taping you to the couch.”

“I’ll take tape over unfiltered child honesty any day. Dorian’s still recovering from her last review.”

“Why? Penny was singing his new song in the car this morning.”

“Really?” Josie snorts. “She told Dorian his new album is ‘trying too hard to be edgy’ and then asked if he was having a midlife crisis.”

I choke on my sandwich. “She did not.”

“Oh, she did. He promised he’ll have her approve the lyrics of his next song.”

The mental image of my eight-year-old daughter critiquing the world’s biggest rockstar makes me smile for the first time today. “Can’t wait to hear it.”

“Anyway, yes, we’re still on for this weekend. Penny can swim in Dorian’s obscenely large pool and judge his musical choices to her heart’s content.”

“You’re sure it’s not too much? I know you guys probably prefer alone time, and you’ve been traveling—”

“Lily,” Josie interrupts. “We want her here. Dorian adores her, and I miss my favorite niece.”

“She’s your only niece.”

“Semantics. Plus, you need a break. When was the last thing you did just for you?”

I open my mouth to answer and realize I have nothing. Going to the grocery store alone doesn’t count, does it?

“That’s what I thought,” Josie says into my silence. “I’ll pick her up Friday after school. You go home, take a bath with those fancy salt bombs I got you for Christmas that are probably still in their wrapper, and maybe consider talking to an adult who isn’t bleeding or related to you.”

“I talk to adults,” I protest weakly.

“Uh-huh. Name the last non-work, non-family conversation you had.”

“Mmm… I had a stimulating discussion about rising milk prices with the cashier at Trader Joe’s yesterday.”

“I rest my case.” Josie sighs. “Look, I gotta go. Dorian is pacing around shirtless to ‘find his creative flow,’ and while it’s definitely working for me, I need to make sure he doesn’t wander past the hotel windows again. The paparazzi are staked out by the valet stand and will never leave if they catch him half naked.”

I’ve stopped keeping track of where in the country my sister is sleeping one month into her relationship. “Go contain your rockstar. I’ll text you Friday about pick-up details.”

After lunch, the ER kicks into high gear. A minor traffic accident brings in several patients with cuts and bruises. Next is an elderly man with chest pains that turn out to be just severe heartburn, and a teenager who superglued her fingers together while making a YouTube video.

“Finnigan,” Dr. Reynolds calls as I finish entering the vitals for the superglue victim. “Room three needs sutures for an arm laceration. Nothing major, but make sure it’s cleaned properly. Looks like he came straight from a fire.”

A metallic tang pools at the back of my tongue at the word “fire,” the way it always does. Four years, and I still reach for my ring finger, ready to twist the wedding band I finally removed a few months ago.

“On it,” I say, grabbing a suture kit and heading toward room three.

I pause outside, checking the chart. Male, thirty-two, laceration to the right forearm. I push the door open and step inside, my gaze colliding with a pair of deep blue eyes set in a face that’s unfairly handsome even smudged with soot.

He’s tall, dwarfing the exam bed with broad shoulders and long limbs. His firefighter gear is slung over a nearby chair. The sleeve of his navy uniform shirt rolled high to expose the injured forearm.

My throat goes dry as memories flash like strobes. Daniel in that same uniform. Daniel coming home smelling of smoke. The way he’d kiss me before he did anything else. His helmet on top of his casket.

But this isn’t my husband. This man’s hair is lighter, his jaw more angular, and his eyes are not the rich brown of spiced rum. And yet the uniform, the smoke tang that clings to him, and the way he holds himself with that understated confidence that’s standard issue for firefighters are so familiar my heart crashes and burns.

But as I steal another glance at him, it’s not the sharp reminder of my loss that blindsides me. It’s the unexpected jolt of attraction that zips through me. It’s insignificant, like getting zapped after touching the wrong metal surface.

My body responds to him before my brain can intervene, and for a breathless moment, I’m just a woman looking at an attractive man.

Then a cold, suffocating wave of guilt crashes over me. How dare I feel attraction? How dare my body betray Daniel’s memory? The rational part of my brain knows it’s been a long time, that Daniel would want me to move on, but reason has never been a match for my grief.

I set my lips in a thin line and slam the door on whatever inappropriate physical response I’m having. I straighten my spine as I shift into the clinical, detached mode untainted by emotion that best serves my patients.

“Good afternoon.” I greet the man sterilely, setting down the suture kit. When our eyes meet again, I have my professional mask in place. “I’m practicing Nurse Finnigan and I’ll be taking care of your arm today.”

     

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